Peaks and Troughs
27 Oct 2017
As this is my first blog post I feel that I should start with, #hellomynameis Emily! I am a recent graduate from The University of Bristol where I studied Biochemistry. I’ve always wanted to work in the NHS and stumbled across the scheme a couple of years ago while working a particularly dull summer job; the rest is history. I am currently placed at Musgrove Park Hospital in Taunton as a Clinical Service Manager for Neurology. When I was applying, I read the blogs religiously to try and gain an insight into life on the scheme.
I am now three weeks into my “real job” and it still feels completely surreal that I am here. Orientation was as amazing as everyone promised, I was lucky enough to see sides of the hospital that people working there for over a decade haven’t had the chance to see. My highlights were the days spent in surgery and with the ambulance service.
In these blog posts, I want to be honest about the peaks and troughs that I experience while on the scheme. I want to be able to look back in two years and (hopefully) see how I’ve grown. So, in the spirit of honesty, in these first few weeks as a manager I have struggled most with confidence. I am fresh out of University and very aware of how young I am. Reading the blogs and talking to second year trainees makes it very easy to assume that you start on day 1 as a fully-fledged, capable NHS manager. Unfortunately, that’s not realistic! I’m having to spend time getting my face known, learning from my colleagues and putting myself out there with new people. Some days this goes well and I leave work proud of what I’ve achieved in the day. Other days I struggle to have the confidence in these situations and I leave work feeling disheartened. Talking to my buddy, my managers and others on the scheme I’ve realised, this is normal! I have to spend time finding my feet and learning how to be the manager I want to be.
My challenge for myself is to take every opportunity that comes my way and not let my confidence stop me. I look forward to seeing what happens in the next two years…